It's been a strange few months and I managed to lose all of my access details to here, so have not been able to get on to my blog.
I am starting medicine in three weeks time - it definitely has not sank in. I gave my notice in to work last week and the girl who is taking over my job has given her notice in too, so there is no going back for me. If the other nurse had not given her notice in, I know 100% that i would have changed my mind this week - I am so worried that I am doing the wrong thing. I earn good money and work part time days - I LOVE my job and am giving it up to go and sell my soul to the NHS. I think I am mad at the moment - absolutely mad. I am trying to cheer myself up by buying a pink stethoscope - it's not working though!
I have been reading an excellent blog from http://thatmedschoolguy.blogspot.com/2006/08/orientation-day-5-6.html
Jason has just started med school in canada and is making some great comments about his first days. I am going to do the same thing and hopefully this blog will be useful for would be medics who want to know what they are letting themselves in for.
It is 13 weeks now since my 60 yr old dad had his stroke. He is walking with a stick but still has no use in his right arm and no ability to speak. It is saddest thing I have seen and I don't think he will ever be able to speak again. He is limping up and down, wandering why people aren't able to understand him. It breaks my heart and I am sure you can understand the guilt i have, flying off to do medicine when he is going to be heading for warden controlled accomodation.
Oh bugger - this is turning into another depressed post - please bear with me as i promise to get happier
poem
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* Inside/Outside*
On the inside I’m happy
Only the outside is surly and forlorn.
On the inside I see you
But on the outside act like you’re not even t...
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